Working in an environment where you need to work as a team is hard especially if there are colleagues whom you don’t get along with. I’m quite fortunate that this is not the case (majority of the time) since I started full-time work. My HTs were and am still quite supportive of me as a beginning teacher. I was seriously lucky and I have had amazing colleagues too!

My senior colleagues were quite helpful in getting me settled in school life. It is definitely a huge transition from university especially since it was my first full-time job. Their experience was a real help to me and I’m glad we still have a good rapport with each other today.

I remember I made a really good friend in my first year of teaching (3 years ago) and we would hang out often after school. It was a great way to chill, relax and talk about each other’s pedagogies. However, this changed last year. I thought it was just the busy-ness of teaching life but she started ignoring me for some reason. And then, she would smile and say “hi”. Another thing we would use to do was call each other and talk until we get home. This definitely stopped last year. I still don’t know the reason why she started acting like this but for me, I don’t bother wasting my time on people who don’t care about our friendship. Especially ones that are two-faced. A pity, but I don’t need this in my life.

Another one I want to mention is my senior colleague. We teach the same language but I’ve always had a feeling that she didn’t like me too much. This is apparent when she will give me curt responses with no eye contact yet smiles and makes eye contact with everyone else. No idea why she’s like that and I also didn’t bother to find out. Part of me does want to know why but I’m also afraid that our relationship might get worse. Yet, I didn’t bother. I just continued to do well in my job as a teacher who cares for her students. If she wants to act like a bitch, then I’ll just stay in my bubble and be cordial as usual.

I seriously don’t know why some people are like this. I get that not everyone will like each other but at least, we should maintain a degree of respect and cordiality. I moved office this year and she hasn’t given me eye contact once! I seriously don’t know what I’ve done to deserve this type of treatment…(I’m glad I’m no longer in that faculty…honestly)

However, I do miss my other colleagues in that office. We always had such fun conversations and everyday was just full of laughter with them.

The faculty I moved in to is just as amazing! I’m glad I settled in well because I was intimidated by them at first…but we’re all working well collegially. I’m glad I also have a good rapport with other teachers in different faculties and most of them commented that I’m quite bubbly and always have a smile on my face. This shocked me because I always thought I had a resting bitch face lol.

I just have to live with the fact that it is normal I won’t get along with everyone but for some reason, it is human nature to be curious about the reason why they dislike you.

I guess I just wanted to rant out these feelings because I hate bottling these stuff inside of me. It’s not healthy and I just want to live a happy life. Life’s too short to worry about unnecessary matters. And being happy with your life, and with the people you share your life with is definitely important. That’s how I want to be remembered. Being happy 🙂


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